Pink Fox: its Raining...IN MY HOUSE! :/

well some good news and some crazy aniety stuff, but we'll forget the crazy anxiety stuff and focus on the goo news.
got someone who wants all 4 baby angora girls and their momma!
shes supposed ot be sending me 1/3rd the price via paypal to hold and deliver (its an hour rive to deliver but shes paying extra for gas and time) so once that comes and we set a pickup day/time ill be happy, its 4 buns I don't have to butcher, 5 mouths I don't have to feed right now and a cage opening up.
even if I don't sell the whole herd, 1 less doe is 1 less doe and the REW seem the hardest to sell here...
id like to move at least 1 more angora doe to free up space and minimize myself to 3 angora...that should be a lot more manageable...

Well I'm back, you have been fairly warned my dear

welcome back lady! missed ya!

exhausted today, not entirely sure why...Im just...drained...

but I did send all 4 angora kits and the REW satin angora doe home today...
AND im vowing to take 1/2 of that money and go on a horsey trail ride at a local farm in the next couple weeks...(the other half is rabbit feed for next month)

now if I could get those 3 dang dutch babies moved...biz wont let me butcher them...but ive got nowhere to put them and yeah...ugh.

anywho...

have all the major stuff to do the buck fence now including gates just need the wedge-loc hinges

and will figure out the cover for the buns soon too...and yeah...
biz wants desert...so off I go.

so....
im quite a bit poorer...BUT...I just purchased 10 private horse riding lessons...
its a "beginner basics" course at a center about 20 mins away that specializes in "special needs" they were recommended to me by a local person whos been riding with them for about 2 years and started with them after being diagnosed with an anxiety and autoimmune disorder similar to fibro...
they sound like a great fit...
the course teaches general horse care, how to tack up properly and safely, grooming, feeding, stable care AND riding basics (posture, position, safety, all the basic needs...) its 1 on 1 too...
and the price ended up being a lot less than a more local stable...much more doable and 10 lessons SHOULD be enough to solidify if this is something I REALY want to do with what little free cash I have.

I sold pretty much all my old garb from fair to pay for this package, and some bits of trinkets id collected...and ive still got about $30 left in my savings after lol.

im excited...THIS is something ive promised myself for years...like when I weighed 400lbs kinda years ago...
and as of yet ive not committed...and everytime ive thought aout it money and anxiety have been an issue...
Now...im paid up for 10 lessons...that's commited in my brain which means I WILL do this even if my tummy somersaults the whole time...once I make a primise/commitment like that my OCD wont let me back out lol.

so ive now got to figure out when the lessons will start, I contacted them directly to see what kind of schedualing they have.
im thinking once a week, but I also don't want to run into winter nasty...the certificiate is good for a year...so I could wait until spring...but I want to do it now lol.
if I were to do a lesson a week starting next week id be looking at mid November...that might be cutting it a little close.
2 a week would put me early October...I kinda do want to draw it out a little bit so its not over so quickly,
mabe 1 a week through September and then 2 week in October...that would put me at the end of October...
yay anxiety brain which now needs to over aalyze everything!


dad also mentioned a trail ride (which is what I origiaonlly whent looking for) so me, dad and bizzy are going for a trail ride....not sure when yet but that's paid for too (they will give me the cash for their tickets)
im thinking with the weather cooling don a little we could go middle of this month...or we can wait until mid-late October and enjoy the fall color...

AWESOME! I think you'll really enjoy the lessons AND the trail ride. After all - "There is nothing better for the inside of a (wo)man than the outside of a horse". And, I believe it to be true!

im in absolute agreance and im currently super super excited.
the center emailed me on recipt of payment for information for the lesons part of things, generally goals, experience ect, medical needs, what appeals about riding/why you want to type stuff
so I emailed them pretty much my entire life story...

I get an email back...they run a special therapy riding program for people with mental health disorders, auto immune disorders, muscular disorders, veterans and "high risk" folks (abused women/kids, drug teens ect.) and due to my anxiety/mental health issues and my fibro, if after my beginner course id be interested in continuing on with riding time and some General lessons (there not quite as structured as the provate lessons and are more focused on being with the hrose than form) then id be qualified for their discount therapudic riding sessions...its $5 a session, but they do as that anyone able bodied enough come early to help tack up their own horse, stay late to help groom out their horse or help clean a stall ect...

OMG, sooo excited.
so im going to try to take 2 lessons a week for the package, then go once a week as long as the weather co-operates for riding time...

*DANCE*

Woo hoo! That is completely and totally awesome. I gotta tell you that there is just "something" about a horse that calms you from the inside out. I can't tell you the amount of times when I've been in a stressful situation that just being close to one of these magnificent creatures will make things right in your world.

Hey Pink, where are you going to be going?

its a center called horses for hope...in mt.bethel PA.

having a bit of a day today...
nothing I do seems good enough...
dad told me to scrub the walls and spackle the bathroom and blah blah blah...
so I did...
and he whent in there with the paint and there was a 12" sqauare space by the toilets with some wallpaper glue I missed and I got reamed...I mean its not like anyone else offered, its not like he would have done it...its not MY house...I work my butt off and don't even get a dang thiank you...heck even an "oops you missed a spot" would have worked but....yeah...

the goo news is the bathroom is looking good, the ceiling and walls are painted, the toilet tank is back in so its a working potty again, the light is up and were ready to tile the counter and backsplash and put in the sink and faucet..its looking great, and everything currently in there was MY design...
just kinda frustrated...

plus not one of them has asked whats going on in my life, how im doing or even given me opportunity to tell them ive booked lessons or anything...short of blurting it out...so ive decided im just not going to tell them until the morning I go for my first lesson...when they ask "where are you going?" or...more likely "did you go out?!" about 3 hourse after I get home...

anywho...

I bought a lottery ticket today...
I found a house I want...I need $60K to buy it...and ill live in it and fix it as I go...restoring it to its former glory...like id do so much in an original style...
http://www.crye-leike.com/615-cooley-rd/nashville/ar/tid-nashville-mlsnum-1560147

I can dream lol...
I KNOW I cant do it on my own, and I think that's whats even more frustrating...I don't think ill ever have MY place again....:/

but enough of the down stuff...
the bathrooms looking perdy and I don't have to climb 2 dog gates and go up stairs if I need to pee at 2am lol

What a cool place - tons of possibilities there! Hope things look up for you...horses will help!