Wannabefree...guess what I got in the mail today!?!?!?!?

Yeh big sis. I quit years ago too

I might start up again. I'm going back to the dreaded job that started me smoking again last time too. *laughs*

abifae said:

Yeh big sis. I quit years ago too

I might start up again. I'm going back to the dreaded job that started me smoking again last time too. *laughs*

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ABI, dont you dare!! LOL I know you wont.....right??

justusnak said:

abifae said:

Yeh big sis. I quit years ago too

I might start up again. I'm going back to the dreaded job that started me smoking again last time too. *laughs*

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ABI, dont you dare!! LOL I know you wont.....right??

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Abi, we will all pounce on you if you start back!! DON'T DO IT!

Well I just got more news from the kids. Child Services in Kentucky says we will have to go up to see them for a visit before they will let them be sent down here. Then we may have to go back and get them. That's SEVEN hours away This may stop us from getting them We just can't afford a trip like that right now, especially not TWO trips back to back. For crying out loud, they're FAMILY....why wouldn't they let them come if we get certified and all that?! I just don't know what to do now. Our 5 classes are an hour away, so that is going to cost a lot in gas in the next month, then there is the fact that everything has to have new locks put on for us to pass the homestudy, and that will cost a bit, and now this? I don't have any idea how much this is all going to cost, and it's not that I would mind doing it, but I just don't know that we can afford to. Everything is happening in such a short time span, and that is a good bit of extra money to just suddenly cough up from who knows where. I am sad, and frustrated, and honestly a little annoyed. They want children to go to good homes, and family members are a bonus, so why complicate things so much?! *sigh*

Is the issue time frame or financial?

I can easily see you getting enough donations for gas if that's the main issue on that.

And no, I won't start smoking again. It's just tempting. I just THINK about the job.... LOL

DH quit smoking about a year before we met. Most important thing he did was NOT tell me or ask me to quit! If he had, I would still be smoking. He did tell me to imagine the worst possible thing or event I could think of happening and know that wasn't a good enough reason to have a smoke. Measure all other events by that one. The most important reason I still don't smoke is that it was so hard to quit that I NEVER want to do that again!!!!!! It's been about 21 and a half years now--same rules held for drinking! The big reason I quit? I did not want to miss anything with him--like life!!!!!!!

abifae said:

Is the issue time frame or financial?

I can easily see you getting enough donations for gas if that's the main issue on that.

And no, I won't start smoking again. It's just tempting. I just THINK about the job.... LOL

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Mainly financial, which brings me to rethinking the ENTIRE thing. I will have to make two trips for sure. But what got me thinking was if I can't afford THIS then HOW will I be able to afford three extra kids? And then there is the whole unease of uprooting them AND us to get them here....maybe God threw up a road block for a reason? I think we *could* come up with the money for one trip and possibly for both, but it made me stop and wonder IF it is even the right thing. I need time to fully decide. I don't want to do anything to jeopardize the kids or our own security. Just have to pause and regroup here for a second. DH and I need to discuss alot more. This is more and more complicated by the day. Overwhelmed is only the beginning right now DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BREATHS here. The two states involved are flat broke, so who knows if we even could get any assistance should the need arise, and I am just really concerned about doing something stupid if that makes sense.

That totally makes sense. Good luck!!!!!

Not to mention I have yet to find out from the KIDS, what they really want.

Okay so we got the trip financing possibly/probably/maybe taken care of, and we're sending a letter to the kids this week. I got Pink Fox squared away, and am home working on bread and pizza dough, then I will haul a load of steel. we're burning trash while I have some help and working more in the house.

Looks like we are continuing forward with the kid situation, some of the family is willing to try to help out if they can, and some really sweet dear friends are willing to help too if necessary. I am sooooo blessed! I think I am just a basketcase and every little bump sends me into "what if" overload. Thanks to some folks here who are advising on the details and such, and for reassurance, you know who you are The finances IS something to think about, and I realize that, did before, but something about being in the thick of things makes it hit harder We ARE gonna make it through this! I am still working on getting all the necessary paperwork together and have a stack of found items that need to be in my package to take to class. Some things I just located this morning. Whew...there is SO much! It amazes me what all they NEED! Insurance policies, DL's, SS cards, you name it, they want it. Even the dog has to have a paper trail It is annoying and overwhelming and just...just....UGH

Pray for me to maintain sanity through this, and not have any more freak outs. Two trips really freaked me out, like "SUPRISE!!!! You're in over your head!!"


I hate suprises I think we will have it squared away though..WHEW! If this is god's will, it will happen. I think He likes to mess with my head sometimes though, just to wake me up and make sure I am paying attention.

Process forward. Glitches help us find where we need work and more faith.
A true roadblock will be obvious.