Are we living our dream?

[Medicine Woman]

I used to have energy for negativity but I just was too immature to know better or I was at a dark place in my life and didn’t understand that I was actually feeding the darkness. I remember the morning I had an epiphany. I don’t understand what the cardinal in the bird feeder outside the window had to do with it but he called my attention away from all the negative thoughts I had been entertaining and I suddenly felt blessed in so many aspects. I suddenly felt lighter. Eventually the negative people in my life began to avoid me until some of them actually changed as well… although not because of me. I do become very discouraged at times actually. I live with people who would need to follow my lead and actually you would think that they should be taking the reins and caring for me. Well HG left for an extended weekend with a relative of hers again and she returned yesterday after DH and I ran a few errands and tended a few chores at other farm locations. I collected the nieces SUV last night insisting that I need to see for myself how bad the oil leak is because if I can’t use it, I am returning it to SIL and dropping the insurance and she can turn in the plate. I need a new headlight from one of the vape shops she plowed into but that’s an easy enough fix. The vehicle runs smoothly and it’s clean. DH will attempt to fix it so long as he has it in his mind to help his GC. He can’t help himself when it comes to generosity. I need to keep positive letters going to her although I am concerned about her future.
So when DH and I returned home I went straight to the bathroom and I began hearing the baby crying and I came out and sat on the rocker/recliner and she came to me and just put her head on my shoulder and quieted down and stayed like that for such a long time. I told HG that I don’t think she likes leaving me that long. It is very clear that she is my baby too.
So after cutting some banana trees for the pigs yesterday we went to my poor orange grove because DH wants to cut saw palmetto to cover the chickens hoop coop with. Said he doesn’t want to buy another tarp that will just rip anyway.
I might make my way to other sections of the forum to see if anyone knows anything about the Upside app. I need to figure some ways to cut more expenses or somehow make our resources stretch a bit further.

 

[flowerbug]

cardinals are pretty cheerful with their bright color, their shape and their singing when spring starts to perk up a bit.