I have wondered about the church judgement part.
Our church has few members, but WAY more than it's share of "stuff" happening in their lives. Way more. I can't say as I see overt sin though. They all seem pretty serious. If anything, what is bad is that the pastor, who is very elderly, had a stroke I think last year and is having a hard time recovering, and has had another lengthy hospital stay since. His sermons sometimes last only a few minutes, and they are always "Jesus is coming, get ready" -- which isn't a bad theme but I don't really learn anything there and seldom get inspired. I do love the pastor and his wife dearly though.
The worship is just not my style, which that's MY problem, but they don't ever have time to practice or plan either. And lately it's been hard with my boss being the leader and that situation. There's been times I FELT God in the worship though -- at least He is not looking for technical musical perfection.
The Bible study has been good at times. The last 2 times I went tho, the teacher (nor anyone else) showed up. It was a medical emergency at first, but I dunno what happened last night.
As I sat at the empty church last night, I noticed the steeple has broken off and fallen.
But I KNOW KNOW KNOW that God wanted me in that church. I just never have known for sure why.
I've been having a feeling for a while that judgment might be involved there. But maybe I'm just being like Job's buddies and assuming that. Like I said, I don't see overt sin. Then again, I've had more than my own share of issues, especially with my animals getting sick, dying, getting killed -- ah, and I guess other stuff too. So part of me is a little afraid and wanting to leave for that reason too.