....sometimes i get down when i hear people talk about christianity in a bad way..
I can certainly relate to that, but the absolutely wonderful thing is, so can Jesus, so can Paul.
When I was a new believer, brand spanking new, and didn't know the Word as I should, I ran across a woman who was an atheist, and did I ever meet my match. I said a silent prayer to God during the course of an argumentative conversation with the woman, and He didn't come to my rescue. There are a couple of things that I know now, but didn't then. One, it is very important to arm yourself with the knowledge of the Word of God. And the other lesson, very difficult to learn, is that you are not to cast pearls (the Word of God) before swine (Pure evil people). What I didn't know was that this woman was more than atheist, it went way beyond that. It took me a long time, and a lot of maturing before I realized that when Jesus was tempted by Satan, he did not allow himself to be baited, which, I believe now is the reason that God did not answer my silent plea. I allowed myself to be led into a discussion that 1) I wasn't ready for, 2) Was not my battle to fight and 3) Caused me to have doubts.