thanks Marianne.
today was tough...hanging out with friends...its riduclous, I love my frineds and when im out with them I have a great time...BUT...its just flat out plain physically exhausting...3 hours out and im going to need 3 days of hibernation just to rebuild the reserves, this hppens every ingle time I go out...sometimes its worse than others, but its always there...
these are people I like, people I enjoy being aroud and spending time with, people who don push me to interact, and who accept me as the crazy nut I am...we sat around and laughed ad enjoyed eachoters company..and all was fine until I got in the car to come hom and suddenly it was likeevery ounce of life had been sucked ou of me by millions of invisiable vampires, the enrgy gone, tired, and frustrated and a want to cry but no energy t do so.
this is a lifelong struggle for me, something I don't usualy share but that has such an impact...why cant I hold down a job? because of this effect...an 8 hour work day requires and entire week to recover from...I hate feeling like this, I hate telling people I like that I cant do this and that because I flat out don't have the meotional energy to do more than I do...once a week...that all I have in me...4 hours TOPS, I could probably push 8 hours if I didn't have to interact with humans (ie a day at the zoo) but even that I come home ad sleep for a week...
and ontop fo that im not only physialy and emotionally rinad de to normal circumstances, whatever this painfull skin junk is is just not going away, dr treated and took blood to check for lymes and elrichia, hes also checkingfor arthritis...(im 28) but if they all come back clear (and the antibiotics have done nothing :/) then im guessing itll be a persuit of a fibro diag...
im back to the drs tomorrow, whichis adding to the crazy, there calling for possible snow tonight, which makes me a basket case, I dot mind the snow as longas I don't have to drive in it...I dnt panic before had, I always stock up well in advance...but the throught ofdriving in snow...forget it...
but I need my deppo and I need the blood work results...
and a new brain, one that's not so chemically whackadoo!
the good news though is while I was out I had a good time. lol.
in weird news...
my black kitty Tempi vanished months ago, I let her out one day as usual and shedidnt come home...then one day in November she turned up randomly but wouldn't come close, she looked fat and healthy so I figured she must have adopted a new family and decided to let me know she was safe and moving on...
haven't seen her since...tonight...I get home, let the dogs out and binx...who is currently n house arrest after trying slice his toe off (no realy, well come back to hat)...slipped out so I grabbed him and look over and these my big yellow eyed black kitty staring atme...
in she came too! she looks good but ate some canned food like she hadnt had a meal in months, shes not underweight, doesn't look like shes been summing it...
but yeah...weird...im not sure now what to do, she still has he original ollar and microchip tag on...id think if someone adpted her theyd hve changed that already...right now shes on house arrest too...I wish I could ask her where shes been... its about 5-6 months since she wandered off.
I half bet shes been livin in the abandoned house on the end of the street, lord knows she would have had pick of squirrels mice and rats.
weird for he to come back now...and with about month to go before I plan to be packing to move...I just dunno what to think, id hate to let her out have her go away again and come back in 6months looking for me...
might have omeone interested in the freezer, need to get the futon sold so ive got stacking sace for the boxes...
im hoping to spend tomorrow going hrough the pantry, going to box up all the cane stuff I know imnot going to use and donate them to whichever food bank can come get hem first, pulled 2 chikens ou of te freezer for the dogs, that shuld be a few days worth of meals for them, and pulled some frozen veg and breads out for th pig...will do the same again tomorrow.