Thought I better post a quickie or this thread will be forever buried. Time as rolled on and I am still here where I was but my attitude has changed and I am learning things more quickly now and that is a blessing! I had another offer at an orphanage on Haiti but I turned it down as my dad will be coming to my local nursing home and I'd like to keep this house so that mom has somewhere to stay when she visits him and so that I can make sure his care is good. I've told them I'll check back with them and keep them updated...my heart is still yearning to work with lonely children. I plan to start using my work vacation time for any disaster relief efforts that I can afford to be a part of and this will maybe assuage the need to help more that I keep feeling.
I found a great new church that has good preaching on relevant topics, joyous and friendly people and, best of all, about a mile from where my sons live, so they get to go to church with me once again. My oldest is very active in his spirituality and is very eager to learn, grow and practice his faith along with me and that is pure heaven! This church also supports missions and those wishing to do mission work, which was a surprise but a good one.
Oldest got engaged to a nice, Christian girl who is lovely both inside and out....YaY!! Such a rarity now days!
This whole month they are doing a series on the end times and Bible study will be on Revelations!

I've been sooooo needing this and my other church avoided heavy topics like the plague, so I was forever searching and thirsty for more knowledge.
I will be helping Mom do some intensive gardening on her place next spring, so that will fulfill my need to grow things. I check up on the sheep and chickens now and again...the sheep both had twins this year and are good mothers. I'm told they are quite spoiled and won't flock with the rest of the herd but stay by themselves close the farm house.
Electric bill, actual reading, for the month of August was $23.97!
God has blessed us all so much this year and has quieted my feelings of loneliness and emptiness....I've learned so much about why I feel this way and why I shouldn't feel this way and now I don't feel this way, which is good!
I can't wait to keep Dad company as much as possible at the nursing home, help Mom do a home makeover, go to church with my boys and learn what I hope to learn, and wait upon the Lord's direction in my life. If I've learned nothing else this year, it's that you cannot push God around...He is in control and will move things, events and people when He sees fit and not until...and it always works out for good for those who love Him! God is so wise!
