I drank a second cup of my blues tea and I'm doing so much better now. This stuff is absolutely freaking wonderful. It isn't as strong as the St. John's Wort capsules, so it works better for me. The capsules throw me way off into manic world, but this tea gives me just enough to pull me out of my slump and into happy world again, lol. I started using it this summer though, so I will probably need more now that I'm not outside soaking up the rays.

So this winter is looking up. A good man who actually supports me (instead of saying "why would you want to be a "effing" slug and not want to do anything and be miserable?" he says "hey babe, is something wrong? You've been quiet the past few days, I'm worried about you") and finally learning to figure stuff out (in fact, Jas is the reason I've really been determined about keeping it under control) is making things a lot different. Life still isn't peachy-keen but I can always seem to find good out of the most crappy of situations now.
As for my back, I'm not sure. I don't know what I did to it, I don't recall doing anything that would have done any damage to it. It hasn't been pinching like it was, I would stretch and it'd pinch and just hurt like the dickens. Now it seems like it's mostly muscle pain around it. I do need to call around, but once again, our phones are out (my mother had them come fix it two weeks ago, and now it's back out again).
My friend works at the church near my house. I'm not religious in any way, shape or form, but I've been doing some of their activities, simply because I like the whole "community" feel of it. The boys and I went down for their Halloween thing, and I'm going to be donating a bunch of soaps for their food bank this month (they get food from donations and the state program, but rarely get in much of the other necessities, such as toilet paper and other sanitary items, like soap). I'm hoping to be able to donate soap every month, and I don't see that it'll be too big of a problem. There are only 22 families at this food bank. One loaf makes 28 bars (I then use at least one as a tester), so one batch per month should be sufficient. I'm going to try to donate a variety of scents though, so that people don't get stuck with one type.
My friend texted me today and let me know that she signed us up for the toys for tots program. That will be so awesome. I certainly can't make anything cool for the boys for xmas. :/ I was going to do some treats, but wanted to get "real presents" as well, which was a bit of an issue. Now if I can swing for just a few presents, then they'll still have a "full xmas" like we had as kids.