Blackbird's SS Journal - Country to City

[Javamama]

I can't do Facebook either That high school feeling is something I never want to experience again. I was always too "old" for high school. I dated a guy 3 years older than me (he's still with me) and I took college classes half days. Our school had a program set up with local colleges for high achievers.

 

[Blackbird]

I'm not even a high achiever by any standards and I don't like it all that much. Just the mentality of some of it. No people in particular, just the website itself I suppose.
You know, it's funny, back when I first made my account on there, immediately people that I used to go to the public school with sent friend requests. I left the school to get away from them, not so they could add me on Facebook.


School? It's going. I'll be glad when the quarter or semester or whatever the hell it is finally ends, then I'm quitting. Don't know what I'm doing, where I'm going, etc. But as long as I am in control anything is better than being pulled and prodded like this.

The friendliest person I've met is the lady at the PO, and she wasn't really that friendly to begin with. But I go there enough that she has to put up with me. I think I'll see if she wants a bar of soap for the holidays.
Also, Leila, the girl at Goodwill who usually checks me out (no.. not in that way.. well maybe) is always nice, too. Otherwise there are no faces that I see often and I haven't happened along anyone else. A couple weeks ago I contemplated going door to door introducing myself with lemon poppyseed bread, but that's not 'normal' anymore and I think I would come off as TOO friendly and just end up as the apartment's creeper. Otherwise I haven't even spoken to ANYONE aside from my mother on the phone, other minor cashier's, and Sally and Laura on the phone.

And no, no one has hired me yet.

 

[kcsunshine]

Well, you just hang in there. I know you'll find your niche soon and everything will just fall in place. I wish everyday that you could get out of the city and back into country living with all its perks (and poop).

 

[Farmfresh]

Sadly Blackbird most cities are a bunch of strangers living side by side like that. I honestly feel that is why the crime rate is what it is. People feel like they are anonymous and all they do is anonymous as well. No accountability on a day to day basis.

When we were in Kansas we got the local paper and they PRINTED NAMES and ADDRESSES of anyone found guilty for a crime locally. They also printed some minor details of that crime. It seems to me getting your name in the paper with your crime attached to you not only would protect the citizens it would be a MAJOR deterrent to committing a crime. No one wants everyone in the town to know that you are a convicted thief or have been convicted for beating your wife .. again.

If they did that in cities it would probably have to be a special edition each week there would be SO many names.

When we first moved into this house the neighborhood was the same way. No one talked to anybody. We still have a house right next door to us that the resident is totally private and will speak to no one.

Since we were buying our house I decided to just BE that creepy weird lady and around the neighborhood I went. We have been here 25 years now and it is a friendlier place than when we came.

 

[lorihadams]

Here's something for you to do.....go backpack around Europe. That would be amazing!

 

[Blackbird]

Yeah.. I think it's a city thing too, sadly.

I hear police or ambulance sirens at least one a day, often up to five times a day. It's crazy.

Thanks you guys!

Wait. Backpacking??

 

[Rebecka]

Hang in there. It will get better, I swear! Like my Grandmother said " you gotta take your lumps before you can get your lumps ( of sugar)" I am sure one of these days all the feelings you have now are going to help someone else who is feeling just as lost.

 

[kcsunshine]

I hear police or ambulance sirens at least one a day, often up to five times a day. It's crazy.

I live about 6 miles outside town but on a highly traveled highway (think motorcyclists going by in packs). This highway is the one going to the infamous dragon - many curves. We can't sit on our front porch or open our living room windows for the noise. On weekends especially, there's always sirens - police / ambulance - going by. So, you don't have to be in the city to hear noise.

Believe it or not, if you stay long enough you won't hear half as much as you do now. It's especially bad for you because you're used to the quiet of the farm.

 

[urban dreamer]

That was the one thing that really irritated me about our vacation last weekend- the noise. That and I was really paranoid about going out anywhere by myself and had to lock my car three times, just to make sure, before I left it in the parking lot. I'm finishing up my third year of college and after changing my major a million times, I finally figured out what I wanted to do. :/ School sucks.

 

[dragonlaurel]

Make a habit of just saying hi and smiling when you are passing by any of the neighbors. It smooths the process because they will feel like you're okay, before anybody has to make any big effort. Little stuff counts.