PunkinPeep
Humble Ambitions
Goopy is o.k. with me. I kind of prefer it.Ldychef2k said:It was sad, Punkin. I think somewhere in his life he just gave up trying. He didn't mind spending money to get things fixed, but they weren't hard things to do. I had to hang back a lot so as not to lord it over him, but he wasn't dumb. He was a federal cop and was gone a lot, so I fixed things when they broke and he wasn't home. I don't think he knew. I just couldn't spend the money!!!
Nov 1 would have been our sixth anniversary. It's always an interesting day. He sort of "disappeared" after we had been married three months. I never saw him again, and never knew why he divorced me. It took several years to get over that. I loved him very much. I did hear from his step mother that he went to counseling for a couple of years, but that's all I know.
We got married at the beach, and last year on Nov 1 I went to the spot where we married and hopefully got some closure. Part of me still wonders what on earth happened. Was there something I did wrong? Didn't I support and encourage him enough? Didn't he feel loved? Boy, I did my best, but maybe it wasn't enough.
Been reading BeeKissed's desire to forgive her family, and I hope I have forgiven Ray, because I really want to. But the heart still hurts sometimes; it's hard not to know why.
Sorry...I didn't mean to get goopy. It's just the time of year I guess.

That's a pretty unusual life experience, and your attitude is pretty amazing. I know that God will use this experience for the best as you allow Him.
I hope this weekend/week is another step in your healing.
~Beth~