I am a flippin' basket case!
About two weeks before I put in my notice (but after I had warned Mr. C that I was going to put in my notice eventually) I began to have trouble sleeping at night.
For several nights in a row, I would only get 3 hours of sleep each night. During the holidays, my sleeping got very badly out of whack. We had several days off (two 4 day weekends in a row.) And while we were still busy with family get-togethers and holiday preparations, I did have more time at home than usual.
During that time, I was so tired that each time I sat down in a comfy chair for more than ten minutes, I would doze off. I didn't get any sleep during these little snoozes. I was still aware of everything that was going on around me, I was just... dozing.
On one of those Saturdays, I did end up sleeping most of the day, so I caught up on some of my lost sleep then.
This past Sunday night, I didn't sleep at all. And Monday at work, I was kind of ~crazy headed~
I'm still not sleeping much at night. Maybe three or four hours. I'll be dead tired, then as soon as my head hits the pillow I'm wide awake. I know it's my nerves, but that doesn't help me any. LOL
Mr. C has convinced me to stay on part time for at least a few months so we can get someone else thoroughly trained. I told him I could come in on the afternoons that my college son doesn't have any classes so he can babysit the little son.
Little son is counting the days until he doesn't have to go to 'school' anymore! Last weekend, I asked him if he wanted to tell his teachers he was going to stop coming to school at the end of the month. He said "No, you do it." I told him I would, but there was never time. Always when we were coming or going, the teachers would be with someone or everyone would be in a hurry.
But yesterday morning when we got to the daycare, there were no other cars there, so B told me, "Nobody's here. You can tell them I'm going to stop coming to school." He is counting the days. Each day (several times) he tells me "16 more days (or however many) until I don't have to go to school anymore." It is very sweet and heart wrenching. **guilt, guilt, guilt**
OH, anyway about the nutty bit. Can you tell I'm a bit scatter brained? This morning I seriously over slept! With not getting as much sleep, I have somewhat overslept -15 or 20 minute- a few times. But today, I got up 20 minutes before I usually leave the house. That is not very much time to get me and B ready and feed him breakfast and everything. I keep worrying that I'm going to wake up LATE. As in past the time I have to leave to be to work on time. I wasn't late today. I dashed to get ready, left the house 5 minutes later than usual and drove a little faster than usual (70, the speed limit, instead of 60, my gas saving limit) so I got there about five til eight.
I have NEVER been late (except for pre-scheduled things) in the over 3 years that I have been working here. And it wouldn't be a big deal if I was. I could just call in and say "Mr. C. I've run into a little snag this morning and I'm going to be a few minutes late." And he would say, "Ok. I'll see you when you get there." But something honestly is wrong with me. I think I've gone quite off my rocker!
Ok. Thanks for letting me errupt over that. LOL
Cassandra (the restless volcano)
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