Well I'm officially in a big fat pout.
We were supposed to be going to a picnic for the rescuers today, taking a beautiful drive through the country and then playing all day at a "dog" park with a group of other people who adopted or rescue rhodesian ridgebacks. Zoe was supposed to be meeting a family.
But unfortunately SSI did not send my check for some reason. Dunno why.
So we have no cash to fund our day today AND we needed to buy livestock food. I finally got a bite on my muscovys for sale, so we are going to try to meet up with this person and spend our last cash on the food for the rest of them.
I am NOT happy. I made a giant batch of peanut butter cookies yesterday to take to the potluck, and I had to cancel. It is embarrassing to be this short all the time. It is good I am selling the ducks because the price of feed is going up too high, perhaps we have more animals than we can afford if this kind of thing is going to happen. I'm going to have Hubby process the extra rabbits this weekend too. They didn't sell so I need to not be feeding them and instead use them to feed us. And I'm drying up the goats so we don't need to buy so much feed for them. I was hoping to keep Cody and this makes me realize I really can't afford a fourth goat.
I hate it when reality slaps you in the face.
I'm also panicking because I read the after-care instructions on my surgery paperwork, and they are going to PACK my good ear and leave it that way awhile. So I'll be stone deaf for awhile no matter what the outcome of the surgery. I may have confused people, I'm not having a cochlear implant done, I'm having a shunt put into my ear to drain the fluid. However this surgery can lead to hearing failure so they may follow up with an implant, if hearing loss is permanent. Right now I hear almost as well as someone with an implant on the one side (distorted hearing, but I get some sounds). So the thought of them packing my ear gives me a panicked feeling, and supposedly my throat will be sore so I won't be able to talk much either. So I'm starting to freak out a little about Thursday. I just wish it would all go away. I know it won't though.