Sunsaver, Livining Off-Grid In Suburbia- Happy Taconight America!

[sunsaver]

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[abifae]

What causes that severe sense of deja vu? I get it a LOT and it gets tiresome.

I read that seizures can cause it. But I don't really get it at all.

 

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[Icu4dzs]

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[sunsaver]

Monkeygirl is afraid of the dog. She only comes out to eat, and won't even go in the house. I sure do miss my little girlfriend. She is such good company. Looks like it might rain and there's a cool breeze blowing right now. Its a welcome relief from the heat. The mosquito truck came by last night, but it didn't seem to do much good. I got a summer flush of asparagus that i harvested:

And some hot peppers to stuff with cheese and onions

It will make a healthy ss meal!

 

[Icu4dzs]

I see you use that real long pine straw for mulch. I used to get a lot of that in P'cola. My concern was that it was making the soil much more acid.
Nice vegetables though.
Yes, schizophrenia can be debilitating and it can be controlled, (most often with medication). You are certainly right about genius and schizophrenia. There are both in the same body lots of places.
You do seem to have quite a bit of the latter though. You write really well, are very talented and "GET IT" philosophically and socio-culturally along with politically. Tough to knock that combination.
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[dragonlaurel]

Wish my asparagus was like yours. I just started mine this spring- so I gotta wait, and wait, and wait.
I've had a few friends with similar situations about the brain stuff. The problems you have, made you not know if you can trust what your brain or senses are telling you. It sounds like you have some issues & some psychic talent for precognition.

It helps if you have a few friends that are open-minded about both subjects and firmly grounded. Then when you have a dream that seems like a deja vu, you tell them and see if it happens in regular life afterwards. It helps you know which stuff is brain having a weird day and which stuff is the talent happening.
There was so much info in these last few posts, that my brain hasn't processed it all yet, but I hoped this might help.

 

[sunsaver]

The things i described happened many years ago during a period of about 2 weeks. Although i dont want to block it out completely, because this may allow it to return if i forget the signs of a new attack, I also don't want to think about it all the time, because that could make it return. I have been symptom free for several years, and id like to keep it that way. This really started as a conversation between abifae and me. I was curious how an autistic person could be so expressive and good at communicating. The last thing i wanted was sympathy or mental health advice. I may live an alternative and super green lifestyle, but i enjoy the same tv shows and stupid youtube videos that everyone else does. I think in many ways i am more mentally stable that most people. I have no phobias (other than THAT big one) i have no depression, unless a pet or family member dies, but i rebound from most every problem without the dangerous drugs and expensive Doctor visits that most people use. I feel that my role should be a teacher of green tech, or organic gardening expert. I want to help other people learn from my experiences. But it's nice to know that i have friends here that i can trust for moral support in a crisis. But right now things are just great, except for the heat. I am finally living the green life that i've always dreamed of. I am healthy, happy, and sipping my vodka!

 

[dragonlaurel]

I'd missed how long ago the stuff you were talking about happened. I was really tired, so that was probably my brain not working quite right. Since the situation is in the past- just ignore that advice.

I admire what you've done. Living very green and making your own energy at home is great, and the earth will be better off if lots of people learn how. Reading how you do this is valuable.