Goings on in my life lately and why I have not been here much.
My DH has been having some medical problems. We have been in and out of Dr's offices with numerous test over the last few months. He has almost completely lost the use of his right hand and arm and now it is progressing into his left arm. During a recent MRI the technician discovered that DH had had a mini stroke sometime in the previous week. So as soon as they finished the MRI they sent him to the ER. His Nurologist came in and told him they would have to find the blockage and see what to do. And then dropped the bomb. He told us he was 90% sure that DH has ALS (Lou Gehrigs) disease and told him he had 2 to 4 years at best. I already had my suspicions but it was still something else to here the Dr actually verbalize my worst nightmare. They checked DH into the hospital to run the test for the blockage the next day. 24 hours later the Dr comes to DH and tells him that it may not be ALS. Looking for the blockage that caused the stroke they discovered a lung tumor. If it is cancerous it could cause the ALS symptoms. So they send him home with an appointment to do a biopsy. He gets home and my mother gets sick 12 hours later. Off to the ER we go. She was in the hospital for 7 days. The first 3 days were very touch and go and she got to come home the same day DH had his biopsy.
To add insult to injury, DH found out the same weekend that the ALS no wait it might be cancer diagnosis happened that at the end of this month he will be without a job. The company he works for is losing the contract with the property he works on. They have no where else to put him. So now I will be the only source of income in the household. Not to mention that DH is tired all the time and cannot hold out to help much with the garden right now.
So far I am managing to get it all done even though I am totally exhausted by the time I crawl in bed at night. I have a really great neighbor who is helping me out so much. I really don't know what I would do without him. But we have helped them out a lot over the last year, when they were both unemployeed, so I am accepting his help now.
I ask you all to pray for me to have the strength to keep up this pace and maybe even increase it if necessary. I am a pretty tough old bird, but am starting to feel the strain of the emotional roller coaster I have been riding plus trying to get it all done and everyone all taken care of.
I keep telling myself that this too shall pass and all will be well one way or the other. And I know me well enough to know that it will all be well because I am a stong woman with a backbone made of steel. However, I do have my kryptonite moments and I guess this is one of them since I took the time to actually post all of this.
This forum has been my refuge through lots of storms, trials and tribulations of many kinds from minor to some pretty major. And you have all been my friends and an inspiration to me on numerous occasions.
I just wanted you all to know that I am still here, reading when I can find a few spare moments. I just don't always have time to post anything or just simply can not find any words to post be cause my brain is not functioning. Sometimes I just post simple little things just because it makes me feel better to be part of the group for the moment.
Jay remined me that I was not forgotten with his post about my potato failure. I could not believe that he remembered that from a year ago. So I felt compelled to spill it all out here and now.
So you all keep me in your thoughts and prayers and know that I am still here watching and keeping up with you all as best I can even though I may not post much.
And thank you all for being such wonderful people.
your garden is really coming a long!
