You lost me. Was not the Bible written by man? So it is a way that man can understand it. Why would I assume that it means something else? Sure there are other gods and Jesus may be considered a god but not THE God. According to the Greek Lexicon, unless that is not counted in your beliefs.
It's human.
Fortunately I am Christian, have been forgiven, and my past is just that, the past, and does not have to effect my future because of the Grace given to us through Christ. Jesus WOULD want to talk to you! God loves you, even if you don't know or love Him. And through Him, I can honestly say I love you too
I don't care who you have been, it's who you become that matters